Now you're just someone I used to know;

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I wonder if she knows that we are becoming everything we promised we wouldn't.
I wonder if things will ever be the same...
Even if we did try to glue it all back together, there is still cracks. Scars that will never go away. Battle wounds.
Without you I'll be miserable at best.
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The only thing left to say is goodbye.

I don't like feeling like this. It makes me wonder if forever ended a long time ago. I try to be someone else, but this is who I really am. I won't beg for your friendship; I shouldn't have to. I just want you to know that I don't want to just let go. I'll live with the regret for the rest of my life. Listen to me, you're killing me. BREAK ME DOWN!

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